from the outside world we were no
从外界看来，我们和
different to any other family
其他家庭没什么不同，
but what people didn't see not even my
但人们没有看到的是，甚至我的家人也没有看到的
family
was that I was being sexually abused by
是，我被我爸爸性虐待了，
my dad
I'm now at a point in my life where I
我现在到了人生的这个阶段，我
want to use my voice to help other
想用我的声音说话 帮助其他
survivors and find out why my abuse
幸存者，并找出为什么我所遭受的虐待
stayed hidden for so long
被隐藏了这么久，
so today I'm actually off seeing Mr
所以今天我实际上要去见
Benson who was my head teacher when I
本森先生，他是我
was
between ages of like 9 and 11 I think
9到11岁之间的班主任，我觉得
be really interesting to know what you
知道你还记得什么会很有趣
remember about me as a person and a
关于我作为一个人和一个
student well you were one of the good
学生，你是一个好
ones
学生，
we were a rural school and because they
我们是一所农村学校，因为他们
come from stable backgrounds they live
来自稳定的背景，他们生活
in beautiful surroundings and that
在美丽的环境中，这
disguised
掩盖了
what we perhaps should have been better
我们可能应该更好地接受的东西，
at picking up
so um one in 20 children are sexually
所以嗯，一个 20 名儿童遭受性
abused and that is an official stat so
虐待，这是官方统计，所以
that's one in every classroom oh my no
每个教室里都有一名儿童，哦，不，
really maybe two and everything hold on
也许两个，等等，
but that's nowadays
但那是现在的情况，
it wouldn't have been any different then
那时不会有什么不同，
but um you're suggesting that there were
但嗯，你是说当时有
20 in our school if you take 400
20 名 我们学校如果你拿400个
Elise the things that sort of would go
Elise之类的东西
on it's ridiculous Emily did not attend
继续说，这太荒谬了，艾米丽今天没有来
school today there's just like so many
上学，这里有很多
red lines in here
红线，是
yeah year seven and I think that perhaps
的，七年级，我想也许
I was more absent than I needed to be
我缺席的次数比我需要的要多，
maybe there was a greater need for us
也许我们更需要
to pick up on them
注意到它们，
and being sharper on those absences
对这些缺席更加敏锐，
and to ask questions
并更快地提出问题，
sort of quicker
I mean when you
我的意思是，当你
get this scenario for you you feel a
遇到这种情况时，你会感到
little bit sick
有点不舒服，
because if you've missed something with
因为如果你错过了一些事情，其中​​有
one
how many others
多少是其他的，
what I'm finding difficult is the
我发现困难的是
masking and smiling is what I needed to
掩饰和微笑 是我生存所需要的，
survive but it's also the element that
但这也是
prevented people seeing the truth
阻止人们看到真相的因素
foreign